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I'm searching for someone, where upon meeting such person, I would understand a real meaning behind life, and its journey. Someone whom wanted to take care of me, share her life with me, and looked into my dreams as part of hers; A person whom walks on a starry path, towards His creator's wishes, an imaginary and creative lifestyle - and places the al-Quran (and the Rasul's sunnah) as the core basis of the life. Finding a single light, that is like a treasure, only a few would be able to notice, and they are meant to be.. different. I hope Allah will lead me to you, InsyaAllah, hopefully we have an understanding there and then.

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Had to see the whole story of Bounen no Xamdou, just to understand this post. Just the part in the very end, even as they were once separated, Akiyuki had to bear a burden as the Xamd, within himself. Solitude and emptiness, that is what is changed from the last century. Kids today have to go through this sort of situation to find out about their own selves. Sort of their love with only be achievable when both soul partners will able to see a different tomorrow together, as both felt as if they lost something, but at the same time attaining something. Its simple to understand really, just like getting something for a cheap price, but it comes with an understanding that it doesn't last that long, but actually does what it should do. "A pencil is still a pencil, no matter how cheap it is, as its purpose is to write on a piece of paper.. same like how modern love life are now. Words are cheap, but it fulfills the minimum requirements as to fall in love with someone, bear on the same thoughts that it wouldn't last for eternity. Unless both counterparts are prepared for the hereafter.." (Link)

"It is those of you whom are successful, are always those who always pray and close within their hearts of the remembrance of their creator (Allah), whom always with their tongue and body, speaks the holy words and preform the solah"

".. but a lot of you, who discarded what is important, and left the real behind, yet it is the hour (which there is no return) where you shall be placed, and that is real."

".. yet suppose the real (the hereafter) is what you should be aiming for, as it is eternal.. infinite"

I have no one to turn to, I only have Allah. Pieces of my wishes, is that hope that mankind will find their own way back into heaven, if they wish for it, then they know where and whom to seek it form. I cried a lot, when reading this part of the surah al-Ala. I knew, deep inside of me.. this is true, and it is the most beautiful part that I have ever met in my life, I wish it is totally embedded into my system, along with all my memories of love and hope. I really, really love this surah.. (Link)

The burden, the weight of everything.. I have to change myself, even if I have to force myself to. I hope and wish, Allah have placed her in a place far, far away from me. I do not want to see her in this world, this world have no meaning to someone who want to change. Let alone even the whole world destruct into oblivion, I alone will continue to change, endlessly. I do not deserve her, ever again, not in this world, not in this Universe and this time spatial distortion.


Translation: (Link)

'Koucha' there had been many partings since then, it teaches me on knowing myself in a little more softer side of me.. I tend to love that side often because, that side is kinder and loves to listen to others. No one should ever change this part of me.. yet it only wishes to be embraced by a lovely person, soon.. perhaps? Translations: (Link)

I believe, that this song can bring us back together.. (Link)

Maaya came into one of my dream in the last 2 hours, the setting is somewhere nearby my place. Pure Japanese, she and her group only speak in Japanese. I managed to get close to her in a promo that she was doing outside. Too bad, there was no one interested in her here. Its as if she couldn't sing here in my place, due to the language constrain. I took that chance to take her home. Which I did. Taking her home.. ehehe. I think she met my mum, then my mum commented, of all the many girls you bring back home, this one is a nice girl, but it is hard for us to communicate (in between families). Maybe Maaya spoke with my mother briefly, but I did not pay attention to girl talks. Just mum's comment came into my mind, as she was comparing Maaya with the other girls. I did something with Maaya, but that part of the dream I cant remember. Maybe that part I just cannot see yet. Still, when the next morning comes.. I run up to see her, she was not there anymore. With a single letter on the bed, I couldn't understand much, but she said mostly about "thank you". I tried calling her cellphone, weirdly it did not response. As if she disappeared from the country. There for a second, I thought of two things. First is, what did we did together - my rough memory said, that we shared our thought endlessly until everything is left unsaid, along with our difference in Religion, our feelings and everything else that she wants to know. Second is why did she left? has she found her answer? or understand that we are not meant to be together? or there is someone else in the distant? or because of our difference in our families priorities? - but understanding Maaya, she probably left for a good reason. Or was the contents of the letter, "Ikanakucha.. gomen ne Imrann san, wasureta.." something like she forgot to bring or do something, and going to get it first. When everything is done, only then she is ready to settle down. If that person is me, I'll be happy :D and work hard for it. But I wondered, what could be so important to be done, even if your life-love is just near you? must be extremely important.. that you have to fly thousands of km back home in Japan, and back again. I still love you, obaha chan :) I said that silently after reading that letter. (update: this just came into my thoughts, that maybe she wanted to share this experience with her closest families and friends, it's the word of the path, she wanted to be in heaven where her family and close friends are there) but, from there you will experience what Allah have said, that the 'gift' of hidayah is only given to which Allah have chosen. You can try, but all of it depends to the decision of Allah taala. It is Allah, who depends weather you will be here, with me in that green place, or not. Somehow, I felt lucky knowing you Maaya chan, your good attitude really shows well, even in a dream. InsyaAllah, I wish for this dream to come into reality, and quickly too. (Link)

After reading the translation from Dilly's website, something which Maaya wrote in a diary and let her fans know bout it.. I find it interesting too comment on it. It shows her current self as well, on how she is.. clumsy, and that 'obaka' cute kind of look sometimes. Her heart, is currently empty, but the person whom is fit for her, has to perfectly fit the description that she wanted. A person whom would notice, even a slight hint, that she has placed for that person. Even so, she said love is more like an illusion in the first place, how vivid the memory nor the weight of the dreams, the reality that we see from our own eyes, and the person whom we meet in our lives has to be taken into account. Like for example, I had to accept that she has to leave me. That point it is reality, and fulfilling the requirements as a person. I had to find another one, no matter how much memories that I have shared with her, and accept the new one openly. But I hope, we have a shared understanding with each other, share the same interests in some fields, and of course are happy with each other. I happen to ask someone today about herself, still she just replied directly without any sense of shyness. Weirdly, as if they are not interested with love or that sort of feelings. I happen to meet a lot of these kinds in my university.. or is it that they see me not as a threat nor a person of interest. Its already hard for me.. I wonder when will I fall in love again? dousurebaii? (Link)

The Magic Number is 11, the "Private Sky" is something to do with "I'll be your boyfriend, and you'll be my girlfriend toki wa matteiru..(Time is just waiting)", but then Private Number is.. XXX-XXX-X-XXX ah ah ah, I know, ah ah ah I do.. (Link)

7th November 1991, after 18 years, a milestone on the 11th November 2009. Still hitori bocchi. My emotions and feelings are already at its peak. This time, I trust in my instincts and Allah's decisions. To whomever it is, I will accept her, and take care of her. Hajimemasho! (Link)

I felt to much emotions after listening to Kazamidori, tears were overflowing.. still thinking that there is no one out there waiting for me, except for you.. the one person on earth who shared feelings with me, and loved me from time to time. I wish we could be able to meet soon, InsyaAllah. Maybe if you like to share with me, I will always be, here online. This feeling we have shared, the memories we linked together, the times when we feel as if the world's burden is on our shoulders. We seek love, we seek happiness, we seek solace.. but why must we follow the world, just because they are like that. Does it means we cannot have our own world, a palace where only for you and me. Two people whom said enough, and understand each other, and only wished for the future. I tried liking other girls, but the more I look into them, I was looking for someone with the same particulars as you, a person whom is lost inside, and wanted to share this temporary life together with someone else who feels exactly the same. One whom doesn't wish for anything, nor needed anything physical. Until then, I will be here waiting for you, where ever you are now.. the daily days, have been hard for me.. especially knowing that this November, I had to spent it all by myself all over again. Just over a year ago, I was with someone.. made pastry with her, even went to my special place.. little as I knew, my father just had to go.. to the other world, and she also decided to leave me behind, saying that I was too much. I just lost two people, two important people at the same time this year. The kind of feelings where someone whom just does not want to continue with life, that probably it is best to end it here, right now. Sore demo, I made that system, to believe that there is still a primary wife, the leader of all of my wives. That system is supporting my lifestyle now, I believe that she exists somewhere, and understands well that this system alone can accept such a person as myself. Everything will return back to you, and you will indeed return back to me. In Islam, either by force or by volunteer. I will make you my woman, and we will continue on with this life, ever journey together. I promise that to myself, over and over. Until our kids grow up, until our hope and dreams are all shattered into small pieces, until we have shouted our heart's desires all together.. I will wait for that moment.. where I would say, "Thank you, for loving me always.." (Link)

Sidenote: This kobato ending song is from Aunt Yuho, couple up with Maaya's kobato opening theme - Magic Number


Hito wa minna tonde mitai no ni
Juuryoku ni damasareterun da
Dare mo hontou wa toberun da yo
-People seems to be floating in mid air
-as if being deceived by gravity..
-Actually everyone is able to fly, really..

Ano ko ga anna ni kanashisou na no wa
Jibun no kage o dokoka ni wasurete kichatta kara kamo
Sore nara
-That little girl, whom looks so sad from afar
-Her shadow is probably left behind, forgotten and lost..
-But still..

Arigatou tte kimi ni ietara
Arigatou tte kimi ga waraeba
Ittari kitari ureshiku naru
Kimi ga shiawase ni naru
Shinpai nate iranai yo
Issho ni iru kara
-"Thank you", I said personally to you
-"Thank you", as we said our goodbyes
-I quite happy to go for it, all over again
-For you to really find your own happiness
-I never really wanted to get all worried again
-Especially when being with you

Ureshikute mo namida ga deru nante fushigi da
-I cant seems to control these tears, even as I felt so happy right now.. It is really a mystery.
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If this is not the last post, I dont know lor :P - mencari kebahgiaaan (Link)