Never underestimate God
06:24 a.m. on Saturday, January 28, 2012
"Fate will decide you say?" It is God who does those things, that human being could not understand. When you fear of things that you are unsure of, or becoming reluctant to let go of things that you held, they are soon after all lost altogether, like having high positions in the working world, or even daily things we use, like our car or even our food, everything has an expiry date that Allah knows more about than all of us. We are just actors in His world, therefore those whom forgets about it, will be reminded on whom he was dealing with. The pure imaginists is not to be played or be taken lightly. He changes fate as how others think it to be that way, those realities combined could not overcome the very will of a Pure Imaginist. ~ "You are dealing with something beyond control.", ~ "It is better to give up, before it is all too late." "If there were someone to be feared, that is those whom are close with the creator Himself. They are like lightning, you will not know when they will strike, and when they do, they destroys everything in their path." ~ The Imaginist may not fully understand somethings, but Allah does and Allah may at times, be non-forgiving towards the non-forgivers (without the knowledge of the Imaginists). "This whole world is created, as a canvas of wisdom, for the Pure Imaginists. Therefore Look with your Eyes, and listen with your Ears, of Allah's wisdom."
Great Scott!
04:14 a.m. on Saturday, January 28, 2012
Great Scott! :P
Doesn't make any sense
02:42 p.m. on Monday, January 23, 2012
I was studying about the reasons why I was attracted to a girl, deliberately it was not even near to my first assumption which was in the physical scope. Something that just doesn't make sense, because she was wearing proper dressing, yet when I looked at her picture, it really turns me on. Was it the the dressing and such? I do not know really, but when I really think of it, it was probably she looks very slutty in her 'real form' which only a Magician would look at. Like when a woman wears proper closed dressings, it would definitely turn of a person nafs (inner desires: horny feelings and such). In this case, the way she shape her body and how she looks, just pulls me into oblivion. It is as if, she is very sexy looking in her 'real self' in which others could not see, as others were only too focused on her outer self. Dark side tells me, that she was a magical practitioner, or at least her ancestors were. The sense of horny towards the person is what lubricates the relationship between two souls into marrying with each other, and furthers into sexual contact and having kids and such. I kinda believe that there is a fantasy going on with our parents and with future in-law parents, as they looked at weather the kids were sexually connected to each other. Like the likings of the mother, to the body looks of the in-law father figures and such, cross linked with each other. Things which parents would not talk about to each other, but they were indeed sexually attracted. Freud would never disagree with me on this one. The interesting part of the unseen world is that, it's like an open end question and answer. There are many ways and possibilities to see it, never the less. Not like the scientific world in which we mostly believe in now; (ie. the Metric system, etc.)
I was wrong about something, there are girls out there that can really turn me on, and they fallen under the categorized of girls whom protect themselves under the garment, but have dark horny desires (in their inner selves) to have a man to do them. I can read their souls in the matter of fact, that they are crying inside for good lonesome sexual activities. Still, we are by nature.. strong in religious things.. Marriage is the frontal nature of doing things right. Oh God, the way I'm saying this is like proposing myself to marry more than one. Not that I can preform well in bed, but the though of horny living creatures lingering around me.. and yet, they still want to keep their holistic image intact is what makes them attracted to me, as I was attracted to them. Arggghhhh.. XD
Bring them all along
12:00 p.m. on Monday, January 23, 2012
The memories that she has brought with her, into the future as nothing was left behind. The faces of people whom she has worked with, fell in love with, talked with, traveled with, she carries them all within her heart. Meeting with a crossroad, in between the boarder of her teenage self and adult self, she separates herself into two. On her left side is the face of during her teenage age, on her right side is the adult face, in which everyone sees now. To her, both sides were important, as she said "Even now, you will be protected (loved)" to herself. While the dark side still lurks within her, in any chance showing itself when others were not looking. Our beautiful person, is still there within us, in the very center of all of our beloved personalities. A balance of everything, a combination of the past, future and present day. Her concept now, is to still separate them, in harmony. But she knew, I foresee into a much deeper scope of the combination of them all. The Ano Hito concept, when fully archived will be one in all of humanity. Nothing of comparison, even when you have a time-machine on your side.. as an Ano Hito person can time travel with just a flicker in his thoughts.
I have come to an assumption where, people without the right brainwaves capabilities would only ignore things in which he/she would not understand.
03:36 p.m. on Saturday, January 21, 2012
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Pitas
11:59 a.m. on Saturday, January 21, 2012
I notice some good looking design, and well preserved contents of some fellow Pitas'ians whom updates as frequent as I do. With good content vs design wise.
http://yono.pitas.com (Wins the design + content)
http://tatsukida.pitas.com
http://being_me.pitas.com
http://realmeryl16.pitas.com
Somehow I wondered when they are going to place the edit/delete functions for the archives. Some of the images are destroying the site, due to age. I'm going to send an email to that guy.
Sex with the Archeologist
11:02 a.m. on Saturday, January 21, 2012
This was categorized as some random morning dream. I guess having a relationship with a smarter creature than myself is much more interesting than the other way around. At least it was sensible, and sex happens. She has a beautiful body contour, enough to attract my dirty thoughts, sensible and soft hearted. She was evil to others, but was so kind to me. She was much more evil than what I can imagined. Yet, her love for me was real, it was honest to the last bits of it. She's almost like the girl version of Lulu's evil Character. I kinda believe now that I was specifically designed to have a pleasurable relationship with bad girls, the ones whom are deeply in love with me. Perhaps the dark side was taming their love one, its a sort of love that most people do not understand. They are too good for it, only evil creatures understands each other better.
Analyzing His Thoughts
05:43 a.m. on Friday, January 20, 2012
It's amazing that, I have to gain so much knowledge just to interpret my own inner-self of the future.
"The distance and inability to meet, would only make the bond between two people stronger.. Is that the sort of lie you are telling(just to avoid) me?"
I took this, from a translation of Zero and ones. When I looked back at it, the protagonist in this situation is pictured as a strong Male presence, pure of calmness, and made out of pure Wisdom. Pure, seriously. The way He talks, is just like an ancient forgotten person talks. Always serious, always directly to the heart, no spinning around.
It means, that all this time I'm trying to figure out why I become like that in the future. If that was the furthest distance, and if he was communicating back at me, or I was just looking at things at I was not suppose to? thinking all those possibility perhaps that I come to understand what was in his mind.
If he was already in heaven, knowing everything. Even when he tells me of how and about, human beings really are inside out, he also told me of their inability to change their own future, that is why he needs me. Perhaps it was under direct orders from the Higher one, who knows really. In this reality, to make a change, one must embody reality to the fullness, while not giving up his fantasies and dreams. That was the price one must take, to push others to change. But his idea was different indeed, much different than what others could ever imagined.
"You do not need to change everybody, just change those whom is around you close to you, if you are able to do that, then the chain-reaction will change the whole world eventually. There was no secret in this, everyone knew about it. Even those whom lived in darkness, under the tree, or inside the Mother's womb. The right selective words is enough, to change the world into a better place."
"You were right about one thing, the original is the one.. while the others were copy-cat of the original. The original has direct knowledge from the higher one, and He is not considered a copy, because no one can copy the higher one."
Collective Conciousness Project
08:43 p.m. on Thursday, January 19, 2012
Actively our Quantum Brainwaves are able to connect and communicate over million of light years away, in real time but only if we focus our thoughts well enough. For now I just wanted to focus my thoughts on the 3 billion people in China's subconscious minds, into a condensed bias collective thoughts trans-phase. I want to feel their existence in this world, their memories, secrets and love.
Prudence
05:57 a.m. on Thursday, January 19, 2012
Life is a living hell, it was pictured almost in every single day that we lived in a reality of hardship, made by the very wrong hands of greedy and selfish human beings. That was the cost. Only when one went through hardships and many tests of faith, strategically placed by our highest creator, in order to fuck our life inside out, we then to see the prudence in it over the years out. We learned how to survive the hardships. I happen to gain the wisdom of imaginations, that was my prudence. Something that even the Jew would never get. Even from me, but if they ask kindly I would gladly even tell them about it, that is if they want to believe it.
The two swords in my mind, are interestingly heavy in an aspect. Perhaps due to their nature of responsibility that they bear. I've decided to evolve them into one single reality, to melt and combine them both into a single weapon and shield. Interesting enough, the source were from two different ideas from two different time, and I decided to innovate them by combining thoughts, and creating a new version of my version of it, only much efficient than the past ones. The Armor, perhaps the future wife can help me build that, because the best creators for defense of the skin can only be done with the mind, a pure mind that thinks only to love you. Finally, the last part will be the Golden Cape, that one is from experience and it is seen as a rank given not to just anybody but someone whom has went far in a distance.
So if I was done with the Sword and Shield, then I'm left with the Armor, and finally the Cape. I've already seen the design in a slight vision, but I wonder whom will be the one telling me of it. These armaments I've been telling you here, are seen as pure wisdom and knowledge that you have discovered in your lifetime, which can help you later in the hereafter. Each and every one is different, from one another. For example, you can never have my mechanical heart, amazingly the one whom repaired it, did not know that she has those abilities in the first place. Nevertheless, she is the one worth saving than the whole humanity race. My love and partner in the other, unknown world.
"More than Words"
10:57 a.m. on Monday, January 16, 2012
It seems, that not only we are not-alone, we are also becoming connected through our infinite connections of mind-waves. A close-enough version of a collective consciousness based on selective words.
The combo are all together again, impress me! XD
Update: Partial Memories
11:04 a.m. on Saturday, January 14, 2012
Utsukushii hito visions are like a continuous event, like the growth from a young boy to an adult and until he is married. Like the adventures he will find, over at Eden. This is the contents of the third book.
Partial Memories
03:41 p.m. on Friday, January 13, 2012
The Truth is inseparable with the real reality. The mind map is partially completed, it seems the concept of Ano Hito and Utsukushii hito are like two different chapters that are not linked with each other. Perhaps Ano Hito is directed to the male counterpart while Utsukushii Hito(s) is directed to the female counterpart(s) perception.
As if they can be placed in two different books totally. I believe the first book was more directed to Utsukushii Hito, in which I was still writing, while the second book focused more onto the Ano Hito concept. The pure imaginist vs the arabic version. While the Utsukushii Hito(s) are a mix of both personalities from different era's.
Plus the Utukushii Hito includes the properties of the Snow Princess, and also the other one which is quite similar to Ano Hito.
The possibilities are near to infinite, but as I captured all of the torrent of information, I can only make use of a few. The collective consciousness, Ano Hito is perhaps on a different level than a normal Utsukushii Hito.
It probably make sense now, but to make it into pure logic writing is the real challenge. Plus the imaginations will make even me go half crazy. Hope it sells good.
Mind Mapping Software
03:17 a.m. on Friday, January 13, 2012
It's about time I've used a tool to manage all of my inner disturbance of the mind, accordingly to archive sanity. This is the true way to melt the snow in me; which means to solve a certain particular complex matter into simple forms of ideas and solutions.
#1: https://sites.google.com/site/advancedislamicstudies/
What is written in her diary
06:38 p.m. on Thursday, January 12, 2012
There was two phase in this song, at first where she was in reality.. and then she dozed off into a far dream, and then came back to reality.. there was this attachment to a single human being that she watched, but something about that person was that in real life he was a total nobody, but when she seen him in her dreams or a futuristic vision, he was an important creature. Something that contra in her mind, laying down thinking of what actually was happening. What was real to her, was it the body of the sad looking person.. or the magisterial person? but her dreams were surreal that, she fears his presence in the land of hereafter. In some literature that she has found, that the potential of a person does not depend on what he has or how sad he is, but on where his mind was. She knew he was different than the others, all alone by himself. When she woke up from the dream, she regretted that she did not said her proper goodbye to him. Perhaps that was a dream where they parted with each other.
This is taken from her diary, Zero Ichi. I'm started to have second level visions right now, but depressingly at a slow rate. I wonder where these memories comes from, perhaps the distant future..
I want to be a writer
04:54 p.m. on Thursday, January 12, 2012
I want to be a writer
I want to be a writer
I want to be a writer
I want to be a writer
I want to be a writer
I want to be a writer
I want to be a writer
Puyo-puyo Fevar!
05:21 a.m. on Thursday, January 12, 2012
Found this game here, http://www.gameshot.org/?id=94
Star Wars and Sufism
03:30 a.m. on Thursday, January 12, 2012
I might be adding this on a long shot, and the target perhaps will be missed but I kinda see the link of both perceptions. On a basics because I practice a mild modern version of Sufism in my life, which quite connects with George Lucas ways of the force (me might be laughing while reading this, if he is). In life, moderation aspects plays a major role in archiving prospects in the light side, or good side of the force. Often fear to let go, will lead to obsession of the materialistic world, while loss of faith of the force. Similar in some good will sense, which I believe most Master Jedi wanna be will understand where I would dwell their mind next.
Modern Sufism as you may know, compels the knowledge of understanding oneness with the Universe, and the beyond. Archiving inner peace with the human, aliens, other kinds of creatures including the Angels, the inner demons *Yes being peaceful even at that level* and of course the Djinns and also other created creatures of the unseen world. While archiving such peace, one would be able to listen from within which pretty much 'similar' to what George Lucas have brought up in his games, perhaps he was promoting the similar alternative lifestyle to most of us, unknowingly and indirectly.
The only difference is that, marrying is not forbidden and you can have all the kids you want, and similarly it was still based on the Religion of Abraham, the basic fundamental of Islamic aqidah which is a belief of a central most powerful collective connective force that surrounds everything.
That was why we Muslims always shouted out a loud, Allahuakbar (The Great Allah)
Only being human
11:12 p.m. on Saturday, January 7, 2012
Upon finalizing the knowledge that which I needed to know, due to our nature of humanity, exists a trans-phase where certain information could not be release to the public knowledge. When comes to this stage, it means that we have reached a level where, any more sharing of knowledge would only lead to conflict of all kinds. Therefore, the secret must remain a secret. That was the nature of being human.
The depths in searching for true knowledge is far in a distance, only when you really search it, you will find it. It may be different from one another findings, but it is all right to have different opinions, rather than a dictatorship of ideas, this was because of our nature, of being human. No human would like a dictatorship, because a human and another have the same capabilities, just how they being able to use their quantum brainwaves, that depends on how well they use their brains. Fairness exists, just to that extent. No human, whom understands knowledge, would like to be controlled by another human. Say it yourself.
To Guide however, is what the Prophet have done in the past, that way those whom wish to follow, follows. There is no conflict in it, whatsoever. Each human being have their own bias, and what they feel is right to them, are close within their heart. But that doesn't mean I would agree with you.
As I have discussed with my apprentice, 'true beauty' is simply hard to be understood by the masses. Only the very few, with pure knowledge knows of it. That is the path I sow for, and will head into. Regardless of what other bias thinks. Your arguments, is therefore invalid to me. The only advice that I share, 'Only in the distance, the great distance.. only then you shall understand'.
Destroying distortions
05:49 a.m. on Saturday, January 7, 2012
That's it. I do not need an intermediary in between my relations with Allah, there was always direct connection with God, and we do not need anything in between. Crossing every barriers, across imaginations of reality and sub-realities, directly to the last stage of everything. I believed, that I have seen the last place, powerless as I was, that was all to it. In that very place, is where I met him. He was smiling back at me at that time. The prophet was the special one, above all of the completed humanity. The ever super politician, and super kind hearted person he is.
Therefore, I do not need any more distortion. My awakening of the final consciousness will be in a state of peace and silence. Words are not needed there, in that very place, anymore in my life.
Feverish Dream
03:37 a.m. on Saturday, December 31, 2011
(I'm having a late year fever right now)
In this dream, at first we started off all sleeping in a room of a house. I broke the light switch for some reasons, then I could not sleep. So I went out with my younger brother, whom was thin at that time. My younger brother was younger at age, and thin. So we went to a narrow street, and look through a open door window, and saw a deep blue sea floating, almost like in Vienna, the waves are very big indeed, but they are round shaped. Then we thought it was the end, but then just walked into the next room, which was a network of bedrooms, where there is luxurious sofa and people taking pictures there. Then the outside view caught our attention, so we went outside. AND we saw a beautiful sight as the seas were rough, but did not kill anyone, as if gravity is playing around with the water. We saw a waterfall in a distance, and people are taking photos with their DSLR. So we run outside, into a place outdoors, and I got detached from my younger brother and almost fallen to a high ground, low ground if not I held onto the wooden pole. The place was weirdly designed.
I spent a few hours there looking at the beauty of the waterfall and deep blue sea area. Until my younger brother called me to hurry up, before the show ends. I wondered, "What show?" so I went back upwards to a hillside area, and in a jungle scene there was this run down aeroplane. So we both went inside. It was a bit cramp cause we are a bit late, so we went to the middle sitting together. In front there was the Movie Screen, as the movie started, strong winds blows through us, I told the boy whom was the pilot to go faster. Which he did, we were doing 60mph and now reaching 200mph. The wind was too strong, and they wanted to go faster. Crazy kids. So I jumped out of the plane with my brother. Where we saw them in the not so virtual reality plane game. We somehow forgot about a tanker scene, that I wanted to play with my brother, then my brother went downhill and play with the tank, to shoot the boys whom was still in the plane, jolly good. Then I walked uphill and saw a weird game.
There was a higher slope of green carpet grass, where many woman plays golf uphill to downhill side. Okay, and there was many miniature sculptures. As they hit the golf ball, the ball then rolls downhill. Something about the gravity there, when you place the ball on the hillside, it would not roll down on its own, same as when you stand on the hillside. Okay, so much for golf. There was this other game where it was called "RAMUS". In short, there was this beach ball game, where we control gravity there, of the ball and where it hits, and of course we hit our opponent. There was this aunt and her kid that wanted to hit me, so she called out "RAMUS", and the ball floated from her hand to hit me, but I quickly lay down on the ground, and called "RAMUS" and the ball quickly float on my right hand. I have control now, and I hit her a few times with the "RAMUS" and she got bored and run away. Then I visited some other area uphill.
Dream ended there, perhaps it was heaven.
Burden in the heart
11:23 p.m. on Thursday, December 29, 2011
There has been many events when communication starts to break down into tiny little pieces, especially with me and a girl when we get into serious talking. Even when in religious discussion, I understand what she means about understanding God (In which she does not want to understand at all, and just follow blindly) but perhaps in a Prophet's perception, it was because due to the difference of understanding each other, and the levels of knowledge called as darjat. I guess, whenever the Sahabat of the Prophet kept asking him questions, at times he also felt troubled by it. His mind was already futuristic, yet he was sent to the worst kinds of people of jahiliah. He was a very kind person, never often anger at those people, yet loved them all. The Prophet always have led with kindness and soft heartedness. Only the Kufars distorted the perfect view with their corroded and dark minds, which are no better than the syaitan themselves. Being silence was the best option, even for myself. Why should we bother telling to people whose darjat is not even on par with ours. It is like talking to a freaking rock. That is the burden in my heart, that I bring from years and years to come. I started to talk to myself, even creating my super-crush personality within myself that I often seen her in my dreams. Hallucination without drugs, combining imaginations with reality altogether and mixing all sorts of sunnatullah rules from the reality with the hidden worlds. No wonder His eyes were all colorful, and spinning like a spiral. Ano hito.. when will you arise from my inner thoughts, to my main thoughts? are you afraid? I was not meant to be on this world, always.. when I see a high place, I felt like jumping.. could it be, that I can fly? (Just to feed your insanity) An Ano Hito, is far devastating than one can imagined. An awakening of the personality, of the distant future in the present day, that can change everything with a blink of an eye. Little people do know, the Prophet himself was also.. an awaken self. Just that, rarely people are awaken.. but most are still sleeping slumber, not knowing the truth or what is false, could not see what is right in front of them, or could not differentiate reality and imaginations. I will grant your wish Rasulullah, I will go beyond imaginations and realities. It was the only thing that I can do now..
Tomboyish Hair Girl
10:00 a.m. on Thursday, December 29, 2011
In this light and easy morning dream, there was this young looking girl with a tomboyish hairstyle kind of girl, perhaps a crush of mine in a different dimension. The person I was, into extreme sports.. sort of like sliding of rocks from high places. My crush was a sort of singer in that place, a flat chested girl, and tomboyish hair and very active in sports. When I see her, well I guess we are strangers at that time.. but I kinda attract her by showing my jogging pose, and she also complied with it. So we went wearing our jogging sandals, they were lookalike Crocks. So we started jogging, and while in the middle part she slowed down a little speed and started singing Mameshiba, kinda an ancient song for me but still one of my favorite. I then know who she really is, but over in that dream, we are just crushes and just friends. We did hold hands, because the route is a bit rough on us both if we didn't, we might slip and fall. On the last, plane the rock sliding area.. I did some skilled moves, perhaps to impress her. I was wrong, she actually imitate my moves! what a character.. The last time, I saw her in a dream is her wearing that baseball uniform and swinging full home runs, her brother was also around, and her full-overflow room of console games. Then in the last skit, she wanted to dive and run into a wall!.... Arrgfhahghahg... I had to jump and capture her fragile body, while cushion her in the saving process. Then we had some drinks and talked a little. I told her, even when we have already someone special to ourselves now.. (yes, I said it directly) we can always come here, in this dream world as friends, once in a while, to feel the fresh air. My most important and treasured friend. That has a haircut, of a boy... perhaps a closet shouta.. but yeah, she looks really young.. far too younger than me. Her eyes, are still that sharp, scary sharp, but she is still an important friend to me. Its good to see you again, before the new year. Happy new year, Maaya san.
Her eyes, those sharp looking eyes.. Hmm..
Wrapping up 2011
01:40 p.m. on Wednesday, December 28, 2011
I guess, this whole year I have to dedicate to my best and closest in my heart, congrats to the ones whom have started their voyage in happiness (and of course, having legal sex) and for those whom have lost love, and found love again, and increase more friends in the friendzone, always be strong for there is many thing that are coming in the future. I envy all of them, because they have found happiness before I do. The calmness in their mind, is very much similar in Everywhere. Opens a light in the heart, that makes a person warm and fluffy. When is my turn, I pondered.. I miss all my loved ones, and part of them have found happiness with someone else, and some of them are still close with me in my heart. I want to love everyone equally, but in the very ends, the final love goes to the person, whom finally bring me down, in marriage.
Hotel California
01:22 p.m. on Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Dafuq is wrong with my dream-cache sessions this very few days, always at inside a Hotel area. Just the recent one, I was in a preparation room, going to an interview at one high level place in a Hotel, and they are going to pick based on a trait a character holds, which is 'craziness' or 'insanity'. In which I *glup* because that trait is what I have now.
The previous dream was also in a abandoned Hotel, but the place was rather spooky and dark. Leaking on the walls dropping water on the luxurious beds. Dafuq is going on here?
Liking Randomness
02:19 p.m. on Saturday, December 24, 2011
There was never a coincidence, if we observe likeness in a psychological aspects. When she was all that dressed up in gold, the only person that comes into my mind that relates the most is my own Mother. Fashionable, sense-able, emotional, likings to an elder person, intelligent in politics, loves Esmeralda Mexican/Espanyol shows. That was the impression, and another thing the likings for Engineers, or complex personalities under the technical side.
When father was still alive, managed just to fulfill his requirements, so I became an Engineer just for the sake of it. However when he passed away, just some time ago two years back, the decision now is fully up to myself. I had a knack for religious studies and business, as well as politics as it seems now, and psychological and technological. I am the perfect son of Adam of the future now, a pure imaginaist. I wonder, who will I end up with in the future, because I believe the person designated also had the full capabilities of a somewhat similar version of a pure imaginist.
The most interesting part is, not only mentally good.. even the voice and appearance is likewise on par with those hidden qualities. Just that, in my past life it is filled with hardships. Strength is not gained in just a few years, it's a lifetime effort. It was never materialistic in the first place, never materialistic. It's all in your heart, mind and soul. Those are things which you can never buy, and only gained through experience. When your mind is beautiful, it also flows through your heart, mind and soul. Changing the perception, and the very structure of the skin and looks. Natural born beauty is something that is rare, because there were only a few in the billions.
I guess, most of my visitors are also by natural, beautiful. Why would there be here in the first place right? unless we have something in common.
Crazy Aristocrats
01:12 p.m. on Wednesday, December 21, 2011
If I remembered correctly, there was not more than 12-15 Great Civilizations of the humanity, because the one that held the futuristic clothing was Ano hito, and he was the last one in that particular group, perhaps allowed to be in Sidratul Muntaha.
Many of the dreams if seen by the Prophet's Muhammad people were an image of him during the Arabic days, but the version that our small group seen was the evolved clothing in which he wore in that place. There were also Chinese people, whose dress is so cultural, and even a woman that shows parts of her body, like large breasts and such. It's a group without attachment of rules binding them, because in that place they holds raw power. Ano hito, brings an image of a super technologists, as even his own heart was made of a mechanical system that generates light. That particular group, which they invited me into was probably the highest level could ever been archived. I guess in every civilization, they could only be one. King Solomon aristocrat, the super magician is perhaps one of those people. These group of immortals, crazy by their nature were gifted by knowledge to be on the very top of everything, indeed close to our Creator, and also friends of Prophet Muhammad, for he is our leader. To a normal healthy mind, they could not understand this because, they were destined to be placed either in heavens or in the fire. That place, is.. different.
When they invited me, because I was the youngest and less experienced, as usual those guys were teasing me. But I kinda instantly love them, and they also loved me. It is a rank above billions of others, weighted upon a single Civilization each. The concept was invite only, you could not try to even imitate their capabilities to enter that particular group of crazy people, sorry about that one.
Odd lifestyle
10:30 p.m. on Thursday, December 15, 2011
Living as an Otaku is one thing, sigh I guess its been weird so far. I was watching this video from youtube, kinda curious of Electric car after my presentation in class about Green Technology of the World.
Perhaps 'Driving in the Silence' is an experience driving in an Electric car, without the Fuel powered engine system? hmm.. interesting indeed. Even thinking about it, shows how a futuristic and green loving person she is. My elder brother is also the same, but I am more to computing at the micron level, in which most eyes could not see. I appreciate computing more than anyone.
Life now is not that demanding, just the usual classes and tons of assignments to do. After a short discussion with my professor, I kinda figured our thoughts on religion is somewhat the same. We both believe in what was in the first 400 years of the Islamic development, but what comes after it is filled with doubts. After the first crusade wars, when the army burned down the Islamic books and library and stole all of the Islamic knowledge.. they separated the original Islam into the one we have today. Back then, when Prophet Muhammad's time, and 400 years after his death, 3/4 of the whole world is a Muslim world. Peace was archive well and everyone was connected. There was this line in the Quran that does not distinguish the difference between the Muslims and the People of the Books. At a personal level, I believed in the Islam in the first 400 years, during the time of Glory.
When I was near real religious persons from the Christians, the feeling was warm and somewhat similar to the Ustaz or real religious persons from the Muslims.. I guess if I met a religious Jew, that practice the original ideas and not an extremist. I believe that feeling is still the same, and ever connecting. The real people, that will governs the heavens later, are these people. InsyaAllah.
Yuho obachan!
01:06 a.m. on Thursday, December 15, 2011
T___T
The speeds of Ano Hito
12:58 p.m. on Wednesday, December 14, 2011
The elements of light, that propels in this dimension sets the very limit of reality. Nothing could go further than that, if it was to exists in reality. Ano hito's concept was that, he archive attaining a level which goes beyond the limits of lights, henceforth becomes an agent that is capable of time travel. Time was, meaningless to the Ano hito. The beauty of it, could only be understood well by time dwellers, whom understands the importance of time. "True peace lies in the great distance." as he whispered into my soul.
Interesting enough, the Highest Creator is still great beyond recognition, even by the Ano hito himself. It describes as when you sit down, thinking of the Creator in His highest form, you get good deeds from it. Human evolution only exists once, and it only happens to Ano hito. That was the true reason behind the creation of mankind. Still even so, he wishes to be all alone in exile.
Only the creator understands him, because that was the reason why the creator creates Ano hito in the first place. Perhaps, the form of happiness is different than what others might think of.. Ano hito deserves everything, but he wants nothing at all. He was indeed, a weird person to begin with.
A new friend: A cane
06:31 p.m. on Tuesday, December 13, 2011
A cane, like most old people use is like a friend to him. When he is weak to stand up with his two feet. Since my leg is injured, I guess I have to use a cane for now. Need to get the edge off a little, and pretty much using it in a few days, I'm already feeling wiser. Psychological effect of using a cane at an early age. Who would have known, my psy-problem can be solved with a cane.
Interesting perspective
10:28 a.m. on Monday, December 12, 2011
One thing that I love about Purarine Project, was that the translation lyrics I wrote were almost totally different than the others, and it has been added some stories into it, to make the understanding easier. When it comes to preferences, I guess there was a reason why people visited that place, even when it was not that popular compared to the 'untouched' lyrical translations.
I believe it as a combined artwork, because most translators could not take credit for his work, unless if the meanings were almost different than the original work, therefore due to the differences the author can take it as his own work. Entirely that is not true at the same time, a copy is still a copy when if we seen it through a different perspective. If the translator have crunched the information into data bits, while adding his own experience into it, it would be called as a research referrals.
Perhaps like a sort of combined experience between both the original lyricists and the translated lyrics. In this situation, where A goes to B, and B sends back to A, and A sends back to B (which the last process is called as the final work), from the source idea it has jumped almost three times, at a minimum of two jumps.
It's been a while really, I would love to hear new songs of this new year of early 2012.. and she was perhaps still pondering about the full English album, but I guess her editor advices that it will bad for the charts ranks. That is one method to penetrate into the worldwide market, but at the same time it will also disregard onto the Japanese market.
I've been listening to Kazamidori as of late, hmm.. I guess, I'll keep this song for myself then. Sigh.. I'm still the same after all this while, nothing much really changes after Dad went away. His money is almost finishing, and perhaps in next 10 years, finally our financials will be stabilized, that is if I have secured a proper job. This picture of my future is somewhat alone, all by myself. Its a saddening truth, but nevertheless I just cant go kamikaze like those crazy Japanese people whom does not hold onto any religion. Not that I never think of it, I do.. especially when I was in high places, I looked down as if nothing was there. There was no fear. I guess that's what happen when you do not value your life anymore. Darkside however still keeps strong value of honesty in the most rigid way. I wonder why, he just cant accept a girl which have boy friends. Perhaps, the snow princess to him.. is also a loner like himself. Perhaps that is true too, but where are you going to find a truly lonely beautiful girl in this Era? that was the real question.. and best of all, he knows deeply that went his eyes met hers, the 'spark' will happen naturally. Sometimes I do not understand, but I believe this is what 'fate' actually means. We have no rights into it, because it is God's work, to decide who is right for you. Time will tell of course.
Till then, good luck to myself to finish up my homework. I was expecting around 100 pages.. OMFG.. that's a lot! Combined work..
Likes and dislikes of the Darkside
08:28 a.m. on Monday, December 12, 2011
Regardless of what she understands about everything, in a straight motion, those things may not be the same in reality. Theory and practices are in two different books, that is one thing for sure. As she moves into the strategy of following her heart, while thinking back that everything that she tried to make things better just backfired to her. I guess by now, she noticed how bad it was. She was looking back at me, as I only imitated her moves, step by step as if on a chess board. I love to play chess, your every move is a step into darkness when you come to playing with me. Once you started to take your feelings into the picture, everything changes - even I do the same as well, unconsciously.
It all started from a phone call, when she was buying the cake. She thought how nice it was to have a single cake, when she made a small mistake leaving her phone on the table. A male character suddenly calls her, then darkside noticed it! that was the root of all causes.. the crazy jealousy side. "After all those words of love you said to me, this is how you repay me??" he said.. the thing was, how she replied "It's just from work." just did not fix it. She can't use the same reply over and over again. It will not work, because darkside reads it as an excuse. Then the second time he notice that she was indeed chatting with another male character about some money transfers. "Doing something in my back is it??" that was strike two, while she easily said "If you want to break up, break up with me." while continuing with "I'm joking.".. I remember all those conversation perfectly. Then finally, when I was expecting for her to give a goodbye, when I was on the bike while passing by her home, she went in too quickly. I already notice it, something was wrong. That was the final strike I guess.
What can she do to make things clearer?, it seems the odds are against her now. She knew, everything I said is true. Because I have went through the very much same situation over and over again. I have twice as much experience than what she has. Instinctively, the moment when her body does not automatically goes out to visit me, it also means, her body unconsciously does not want me anymore. Your instincts would never lie to your own body, that is what I learned after all this years.
How about the solution? It is simple: Take actions, as a good human being. Why fight the darkside in his rules and conduct, while you can overcome the darkness's with light. That's how the 'Everywhere' song always calmed his heart down, because by creating the first impression where she repaired his broken heart, by removing the bad gears, and placing a twin-light/dark engine system that could coexists at the very same time. Rather than removing it, she embraces it both as a whole. That is how you find acceptance in a person such as myself.
This is because, people could never run away from their darkside at the same time, redeemed seeing that they are good, because of doing a little good. In fact, was just a method to temporarily lying to themselves from their true selves. It is wrong, because when you lie to your own instinctual nature, the self will go against you when it finds out that you are taking advantage of it. That was why, I accepted it as a whole, I accepted the way I am. While gradually improving its perception step by step. By hoping the best to come, in the near future.
I miss the silence
12:50 a.m. on Monday, December 12, 2011
It was peaceful, only listening to her music all day. I really appreciate, and being thankful to Allah taala for the inner peace that God has granted to me. All of the noises disappears, into the winter coldness. There is no one arguing about anything, and I have reached my objective. I wonder, if there was any girl out there that loves silence, and even more appreciate good music with silence in the background? I knew it would not work out from the start, unless if she is willing to go further than this after knowing my true nature. I doubt any human being can handle it, unless if it is her, which she is sure, without any doubts wanted to be with me. That girl deserves the best, that all this while.. perhaps, time will tell really whom is the real one. You do not need to force yourself into anything, as it will come naturally in the right time. The shunning part was that this was just a gheist.. just a scratch.. there is no way she could handle it as full power, plus the {unknown} personality is the prize for the winners. The combination of both the {light and dark side} in full force. So right now, her assumptions were just portions of the real truth. She will never know, who the real person is. She never had potential from the start.. though I personally have warned her, of the dark side and his capabilities.
Damaged body
02:08 p.m. on Sunday, December 11, 2011
It seems God was serious about the five pillars of Islam, regardless of whether the person believed in the concept of prayers or not, that such realities in Allah's perception is seen as a serious matter. I have learned my lessen on this one, while the pain is still in my body, it reminds me of how important it is to take care of our five pillars of prayers. I complained and talk a lot with my ever silent and all seeing creator, well because there is not a single human being that is capable to share my thoughts with. Sadly that was still true, even after the slip that I had while was on the road. I fell down on my left side, injuring my left side of the body. Not much blood comes out, just some badly scratches here and there. Plus I have to walk like Dr. House with a cane for this few weeks.
The verdict: My hands and palms are all okay, and I have to sit down on a chair while praying to Allah. It's weird, because Allah is also sitting on his throne, the kursi (if we are able to see Allah directly). Was Allah mocking me or something, that one I am not sure of. But every-time when I prayed sitting on the chair, I can't get off that smile of my face and at the same time tears were in my eyes, remembering of Allah taala. He did not destroy my hands, it means I still can do my homework, just that I could not walk here and there as I could before. I'm walking at an old's man speeds right now, really old man speed.
The challenge: When you are in trouble, your friends will be there right to visit you? the fact is.. if no one comes to visit, you never really had any real friends and that is the truth. Human being are a composite of lies and lies. I will go against those human beings. In my eyes, they were a real disgrace to the real humanity. The pain was not on my damaged body, however it originated from my heart. Sadly again at this age of 27, nothing has changed and probably never will.
The Snow Princess, was actually Sailor Cosmos
06:52 p.m. on Saturday, December 10, 2011
Winter is in Progress
06:54 a.m. on Saturday, December 10, 2011
Words have disappeared into the cold
The ice will keep them there, and I am told
Now the empty night is coming
Wait, and see,
but no one can melt the snow in me
Staring deep into the winter night
The crystal ground reflects a gleaming light
But behind me all is empty
Wait, and see,
only I can melt the snow in me
You arrived, you saved me from the fading stars
And the light you gave me filled my empty heart
Then you gently wept my frozen tears away
Savior is your name today
Found the heart I thought that I had lost
I buried it too deep beneath the frost
I can feel my walls are breaking
Wait, and see, maybe you can melt the snow in me
Through the blizzard, on you I will lean
Just like the fir tree you are evergreen
Now it seems the black is fading
Wait, and see, maybe I am not alone,
I am not alone,
I am not alone,
I am not alone,
at all
this time
we melt
the snow
I'll wait
until
you have arrived,
you saved me from the fading stars
And the light you gave me filled my empty heart
Then you gently wept my frozen tears away
Savior is your name today
you saved me from the fading stars
And the light you gave me filled my empty heart
Then you gently wept my frozen tears away
Savior is your name today
~ Comments, One thing I love about this song is the special words that is used in them, such as "snow" or if in deeper translations, it means water that has been frozen due to the environment changes, under zero degrees Celsius. She started the song with 'Words' or in Japanese it would mean, 'Kotoba'. Like a sudden character change, due to the cold weather. At first, if we place an understanding that "melting the snow" means to solve a question in a step by step procedure, while it very much links to the next word which is "I am not alone.". The complexion means that, it is a stand alone complex, but upon saying "I am not alone" it means that she has found a counterpart that is capable to solve the mysteries inside of her. Perhaps a capable soul, which is willing to spend most of his time, trying to solve a great puzzle in her heart. "Through the blizzard, on you I will lean. Just like the fir tree you are evergreen. Now it seems the black is fading" which means, "Through hardship I have depended on you, that aside from what you explain yourself, you have a softer side, and even now I have seen a light inside of your dark side." while we understand how lyrical it may seems, why it was in English was indeed an interesting factor. Perhaps Snow was an English setting, and if it was in a Japanese words sentence, it would not fit. I guess she figured it out, for her listeners to actually notice the differentials. Least for me to say, perhaps I am alone doing all this from afar. Do not undermined my mental capabilities, as it is almost near to Quantum technology. I have to thank all my teachers for it. I have the least interest in saving humanity, because that we only save those whom wish to be saved, and not everyone, not just anyone, if you were chosen then, you are special among the special ones. One thing I left out, was the feelings of this song, which is more biased to the woman's heart. That part I could not decipher, because of the nature of my heart is of a man. I leave that to for others to decipher.
Sociology
10:05 p.m. on Friday, December 9, 2011
Perhaps, why I felt like wanting to continue my studies in the same field as her, was because of the complex I had over her. When the mind streamlined from the left hemisphere to the right hemisphere, in means I think better than more people out there. Just the limitation comes to our sexes, as I could not figure out what goes in the mind of a woman. Let it be a mystery forever.
Stumble
06:00 p.m. on Friday, December 9, 2011
Meaning of "Melt the snow in me" in a translation book mention the term of "A heavy question being answered little by little". The translation book was in Indonesian, when I linked up the clues, it figures, that the song can be translated, even when it was in native English. "I'm not alone, I'm not alone, I'm not alone.. This time you melt the snow, I'll wait until you have arrived." Aha! interesting indeed.
Yatto deaetanda ne
02:29 p.m. on Friday, December 9, 2011
"Finally I have met you."
On another note, that Golden man where JD sees in his visions was rather similar to Ano hito in some ways. Perhaps Ano hito wants me to suppress his level. I could not avid away from what I saw, it was surreal and real at the same time. Accepted it as my reality, and we go on from there henceforth into the future.
Redline
01:48 a.m. on Friday, December 9, 2011
When speed matters, going faster than 300kmph on the road, faster than anyone else, while pushing the limits. Sorts of thinking are very profound and ill-iterated by most people. Speed of light, which is quite near to 300kmps, and there were theories that there were also what goes faster than light. Interstellar thoughts, combined and understood what is before its time, indeed such thoughts are indifferent and barely understood by normal beings. Yet, knowingly humans as a whole, understands the means of going fast, and faster. As they broke the barrier, time eventually bends itself. Archiving speeds that changes the very reality of the person. That was the bond between me and her, even when it was time-bending, reality bending, there was almost no space between us, when actually the distance is great, but due to our speeds, we were actually near to each other. What goes beyond that, I felt only fear knowingly it.
There were many memories, just too many..
08:17 p.m. on Thursday, December 8, 2011
In fact, just that my mind was unable to recall all those hidden memories just yet. There was indeed too much memories going on in a single moment, and regardless of what it was, those experiences was indeed real to me. It was hard to explain, indeed it was. I knew them, but I just recall them all. Seriously it's a mystery. That I love to know them, if I could. Everyone wished to live their lives, I guess I wish to live it that way.. perhaps one day, realization will reached to me, and finally I will understand. Not now, but perhaps soon. There were many travels, many-many different people, situations, and happenings, that never ends.
:3
08:26 a.m. on Tuesday, December 6, 2011
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